Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Biggest Loser 2014....The Psychology Behind Weight Loss

*Disclaimer-although I do hold a BA in psychology (who doesn't) I am not trained to assess or diagnose clinical or abnormal disorders.

It took all night for me to be able to process what I saw last night. I don't normally watch much television any more. I just don't find it to be very entertaining. But since I am trying to do less work and relax more I decided to watch some network television. Now I have never watched Biggest Loser, and who knew that this was their 14th season! I was like really? How did anyone watch this thing for 14 seasons. But as I watched more of the show it was interesting to watch the interactions of the "contestants". Now I don't support the premise of Biggest Loser because it always seemed like a show that rested on unhealthy weight loss extremes to provide entertainment and not so much in dealing with the emotional, mental, and psychological issues that have lead many of its participants to gain weight.

Regardless, I watched about the last 7 episodes or so and thought it would be exciting to watch the finale while I prepared my smoothies for the next day. I knew that the three finalists would have the most dramatic results as they had the most to "lose". I also figured that the lead contender Rachel Frederickson would most likely have an extreme result as she seemed to be so competitive and determined to win. I figured though that she would tone up and maybe slim down a bit.



What actually appeared was something altogether different. I don't believe in the practice of fat, slim, or skinny shaming but in a competition where one's percentage of weight loss is the deciding factor of whether one succeeds and wins the prize...I think we have finally seen the evidence of what this could really mean. Rachel had a starting weight of 260 and at the end of the show weighed in at 105 lbs at 5'4. Now I know there are issues with BMI, but most focus on the issues at the higher end of scale but I would like to take a look at the lower end classified as underweight. Those numbers as they stand put her at a BMI of 18 slightly under the cut off for healthy range of 19.

But this isn't really about her weight. I see the weight as a physical indicator of bigger individual and social issues within the US. First off, any show that targets weight loss needs to have trained licensed psychologists as a part of the "health" team just as much as they have doctors and trainers. We are holistic beings that cannot be addressed by just fixing one portion, especially not just the physical exterior. There needs to be a holistic assessment of the needs of these individuals as there should be for all.

Cognitive, behavioral, and environmental aspects all effect what we do daily and over the long term. I believe that what occurred on the biggest loser was a combination of a personal desire for control, perfection, and competitiveness combined with a societal standard that praises those very actions and desires while also holding woman at often unobtainable physical standards.

Many are condemning NBC, The Biggest Loser, and Rachel herself for what occurred in the show but really how can you blame someone for doing exactly what was expected of them. Doing what needed to be done to win the prize. Losing the weight to gain back her self confidence. Becoming a thin, thigh-gap toting, woman. Yes, something should have been done by the network, the show, and personally by the contestant but there are so many other factors here that it does not seem fair or helpful to attack Rachel solely. If anything I pretty much agree with those that say she will gain the weight back now that she has "won" the show. What I worry about is the message that is delivered that to "win" you have to go to any extreme necessary. Health and wealth are about more then looking good and having monetary assets.

It's time for a change America.
-Rose

Tuesday, February 4, 2014

February Juice Feast: Day 4 Cont. Onward Ho!!

Alright, so I shared this on the facebook page and I'm sharing here.

I ate a chip. Beanitos' Bar b-q and it was so good! But it was food and it was eating. I thought I would be sad if I ate...or be in denial. But really I just feel more empowered. Not to eat but to share what I go through truthfully AND to continue to juice/ have smoothies.

Lol this is such an exciting development! I don't feel like, well I ate so I might as well just keep eating. I feel like hmm that was nice but let's keep going with this feast!

That's the empowerment that I feel like I have not really experienced before. I've never really had to work for some things but with my weight...with my self...the doubts always been there. But with every new accomplishment and experience that I have I realize that I CAN do what I set my mind to! I can reach my goals and I can do it all while being gentle and loving to myself. This juice feast is turning into something altogether. I can only wait to see what comes next. Greatest lesson learned. Best chip ever.

Here's to tomorrow. Juice on!
-Rose

February Juice Feast: Day 4

I WANT TO EAT!!!



Ok well not that stuff cause I don't even eat animal products if I can avoid it. But lol that is how I'm feeling right now. I just want to chew something. I think I'm hungry and tired of juices. I may need something more filling. I almost...ALMOST went into my supervisors office and got some of the vegetable chips that she has for a snack but I stopped myself. First of all, I won't even like it cause it will taste fake and sad. Then, I'll be having to spend time convincing myself not to feel guilty because I ate (though knowing me I'll be all "I don't care I do what I want!" and rationalize it away.

Anyways, I've finished the two juices I brought with me to work and now will have to wait until I go home for my next juice...I might have a smoothie to though since I am wanting nourishment. We will just have to see when I leave.

I am wondering though...is this body hunger or mind hunger as Carla Douglin calls them. Cause in one sense it's like "yea I'm hungry". Then on the other hand it's like "no I just want to eat because when I get bored or feel a bit tested that's what I've always done". The issue I'm having right now is I think it is honestly a bit of both. So yes, I need to eat (gosh I mean juice) because I probably don't have enough calories in my system since I worked out yesterday.

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Ok had to get some things done but I'm not finished with this post. Today is just a day of my wanting to make it through the week but still wanting something different. Something crunchy! Even on a vegan or raw diet I could have flax seed crackers or carrots. Nope none of that here. They say though when you want crunchy foods its because you have frustration. But I don't necessarily feel frustrated about anything other then the fact that I can't have something crunchy....

*sigh*

Tonight I need to run to the store, then I can go home and chill en mi casa while I continue to work on conference abstracts. Maybe tomorrow or tonight I will have some time to reflect on if there is an emotional component to all of this...I hope there isn't though honestly lol.

To better days,
-Rose

Monday, February 3, 2014

February Juice Feast Day 3-Returning to the Daily Grind

Good day!

So I was kinda worried about going into work and how I would handle the whole juicing while working situation. Seriously though, it's times like these where I just laugh at myself because today has been a breeze!

 In fact I'm not even as hungry as I have been for the past 2 days. Definitely a relief as this means I focus on other things then my juicing. So now back to my life!

I had an unexpected deposit in my bank account so I'm a trying to verify the funds before I get all super happy and run off on a happiness money in the bank jaunt.

Unfortunately it has been impossible to get a hold of payroll! I'm like, "hey! don't you guys know I have already figured out what I'm going to do with this money. I need to know whether or not I get to keep it yo, and with a quickness". But I am being patient and calling...frequently.

February Juice Feast Day 2

Happy groundhog day!!

Well 6 more weeks of winter but that seemed pretty obvious to me. It is so unusually cold here in north Texas. In fact the high for today is 32. Really? How is that a high temperature? Ugh Texas you are letting me down. Where are my mild winters?

Other then the cold, I started out the day really well. Had 16 oz's of water to start the morning and then have been sipping on my juice throughout the rest of the morning. The fantastic thing is that since it's Sunday (The big football game Sunday in fact) I can relax and sit in bed rejuvenating.

Well I have been alternating between reading Vegan blogs and working on 3 abstracts or conferences I would like to present at. If you are interested which you may not be, I conduct research on obesity, weight-loss, race/ethnicity, women, and plant based diets. Lol and yes I love it, I'm a nerd. But anyway, I am drinking a carrot, grapefruit, tangerine, and ginger juice. It is eh. Not nasty and I enjoy it but it is not delicious at all. I will make this again but use two tangerines instead of two grapefruit. I'm not the biggest fan of grapefruit so this should really help me out as far as knowing what types of fruit and how much of it I should be buying.

Overall today was an absolute success. I am overjoyed to be able to continue on this route and already my skin is clearing up. Onward and upward!

Talk to ya tomorrow,
-Rose

Sunday, February 2, 2014

February Juice/Smoothie Feast Day 1

Hello out there!

Two posts in one day! I know, I know it's amazing.

Well I wanted to have a post on what I've been up to and get everything started off and now I want to focus specifically on what is happening today and for February. So let me start off with my general idea of my plan for the month.

Alright, so in February I find that I tend to want to cleanse and start moving away from the heavier winter foods such as soups to the lighter spring/summer meals. I was having oatmeal every morning, soups for lunch, and then another soup or small meal for dinner because it was so cold this in December that I just wanted to consume foods that were warm and in turn in my head would warm me. With that though, I had gotten to a point where my body pretty much decided that it was content with 165 lbs which I was ok especially since my working out was pretty much nonexistent.

So here is my February plan:

Week 1
     Juice (if I can make it through the week I will but if not then I will have smoothie's for lunch)
Week 2
     Juice for breakfast and dinner, smoothie for lunch
Week 3
     Juice for breakfast, smoothie for lunch and dinner
Week 4
     Smoothie for breakfast, lunch, and dinner

Very simple. Nothing drastic in my opinion although I know there are several who are thinking to themselves...wait so you are going to be on a liquid diet? And to that I say....kind of. None of my meals should technically involve chewing but I will be keeping the fiber in with the smoothies soooo not quite as extreme as a complete juice feast. Now I had been planning to do this anyway but Carla Douglin from Raw Raw Life has a facebook page and low and behold she opened a group to do a 28 day juice feast! How perfect! So I joined the group and now I have a bit of a community to talk to about the things that I experience while on this adventure for this month.

Now no plans are set in stone other then that I will do my best to follow my plan and at least remain raw. I believe in compassion and grace because I refuse to falter, fall, or fail. I despise those words. I do what is the best for my body, my sanity, and myself. With that being said, here's to day one.

Recap February 1, 2014

Sooo I had a bit of a moment last night. I'm pretty sure I was feeling anxiety about the fact that today was the first  day of my food adventure. So I went to a natural food store and got myself some solids (Beanito's anyone) so that I could live it up before the first. Then I think I've been feeling anxious in general since I have some things in the work that I would like to get rolling but I really don't have much control over the process. So combine all of those things together and I ended up staying awake until 3 ready Spock and Uhura fanfiction (yes I love them, get over it). If you know me, you know I do not stay up past 10 so to be up until 3... I mean I was just having abnormal behavior.

So I woke up in the morning and had accomplished none of the great plans that I had set in place. So I needed to juice today so that I would have something to consume. I had decided that because I knew I was going to be starting my adventure in February I let myself have the weekend off. So no school work just Rose time. With that being said, I stayed in bed until about 9 which is super late for me. But I said that I was going to take things slow and just enjoy the day as it came.

So I got up turned up the heat so I could wander around the apartment comfortably. Pulled out my veggies and fruit and juiced.
Here is my breakdown of juices, now this made enough to last me two days. I cannot see myself having to juice every morning so I make enough for 2 days.

Breakfast-fruit juice
Apples
Eggplant
a couple of grapes
Orange
Tangerine
and a bunch of kale

Lunch-Vegetable
2 lbs of Carrots
2 Grapefruit
1 tangerine
a piece of ginger

Dinner-Green Juice (this juice is divine!)
Kale
Chard
Collard greens
Dandelion
Fennel
Parsley
2 lemons
3 apples

Now I had my juice ready....and around 4 that afternoon...I had a cravings attack! I mean I was just freaking out. I was hungry, I wanted to chew, I just wanted to eat. And the thoughts kept spiraling through my head, "just eat. It's ok. No one has to know. Or you can tell everyone and then it won't matter because what are they going to do? Plus everyone thinks juicing is crazy anyway so they will probably congratulate you on returning to your sanity". I mean it was just an onslaught of thoughts that stemmed from my minds understanding that to be healthy, to follow my normal patterns, I needed to chew and ingest solids. Now I do have a lazy digestive system so I do need fiber in order to maintain regularity but I can get that in smoothies. Actually ingesting solids...that is something that I can choose to not do every now and then (basically when the seasons change). So I had my juice and just kept drinking it and eventually the thoughts went away. It was great! So just another affirmation that when I want to do something, I can. As a powerful being there is nothing that I cannot do. So here I am. On to day 2!

-Rose

Saturday, February 1, 2014

The Inevitable Return

So I'm not even going to look back and see when was the last time that I posted a blog...I'm thinking well over a year ago. But I have again returned! Hopefully to be at least slightly more consistent then before. So quick run down of updates:

I finished my master's in Sociology and Women's Studies, so I'm just waiting for May to actually graduate.
Got a new job
Maintained my 90 lb weight loss
Started a long term life savings
Got a life (lol).

No seriously, the past year has been amazing for me. But I'm not here to dwell on the past. I am looking to celebrate the here and now.

I really probably should have started this in January but I was still adjusting to all the changes that occurred really quickly for me. Now I will say that I am not a person who really supports or believes in New Years Resolutions. I mean, for me I set new intentions just about every new moon (and no that is not a coincidence). Now, I do have some general intentions such as my body operates at an optimal level at all times and I am consistently abundant in wellness an wealth, I keep these intentions because I want to always remind myself of the fabulous creature that I am. The other reason I have to create new intentions or goals that I want to manifest are because I manifest them! I cannot understand how someone can make a real resolution that's supposed to last or an entire year. We should be constantly re-evaluating our lives, wants, and desires. I can't maintain the same goals because I meet my goals and thus I need new ones. Alright so that's my rant about New Year's resolutions.

Here is how I envision my first 5 months of the year.

January-Regroup and gather information to set definite goals and intentions.
February-Health
March-Relationships/Emotional Health
April-Wealth/Money
March -Spirituality

Now yes, I realize that all of these areas interact and that for me it is impossible to really separate each one but those are the areas that I would like to emphasize for that month. So far so good! Now for February I am looking at getting my health together and as it is February 1st it is officially time to take my health on. In January I made it a goal to go to the gym at least 2 times a week and to run or walk 2 times a week as well. That worked out alright although since this weather is ridiculous here in Texas it was difficult sometimes to make sure that I got my outside activity because I don't do cold.
So for February I have a few things that I would like to achieve but that's or next time. Goodnight!

-Rose