Ok well not that stuff cause I don't even eat animal products if I can avoid it. But lol that is how I'm feeling right now. I just want to chew something. I think I'm hungry and tired of juices. I may need something more filling. I almost...ALMOST went into my supervisors office and got some of the vegetable chips that she has for a snack but I stopped myself. First of all, I won't even like it cause it will taste fake and sad. Then, I'll be having to spend time convincing myself not to feel guilty because I ate (though knowing me I'll be all "I don't care I do what I want!" and rationalize it away.
Anyways, I've finished the two juices I brought with me to work and now will have to wait until I go home for my next juice...I might have a smoothie to though since I am wanting nourishment. We will just have to see when I leave.
I am wondering though...is this body hunger or mind hunger as Carla Douglin calls them. Cause in one sense it's like "yea I'm hungry". Then on the other hand it's like "no I just want to eat because when I get bored or feel a bit tested that's what I've always done". The issue I'm having right now is I think it is honestly a bit of both. So yes, I need to eat (gosh I mean juice) because I probably don't have enough calories in my system since I worked out yesterday.
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Ok had to get some things done but I'm not finished with this post. Today is just a day of my wanting to make it through the week but still wanting something different. Something crunchy! Even on a vegan or raw diet I could have flax seed crackers or carrots. Nope none of that here. They say though when you want crunchy foods its because you have frustration. But I don't necessarily feel frustrated about anything other then the fact that I can't have something crunchy....
*sigh*
Tonight I need to run to the store, then I can go home and chill en mi casa while I continue to work on conference abstracts. Maybe tomorrow or tonight I will have some time to reflect on if there is an emotional component to all of this...I hope there isn't though honestly lol.
To better days,
-Rose
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